Just My Thoughts

I don’t usually blog two days in a row. I like to ponder what I said and build on that or move on to a new subject. As I thought about my last blog on grief, at 3:00am, I realized that I was still in the grief process. The world looks different to me now. My mom died three months ago and I still want to cry whenever I think about her. I want to cry when I hear that someone else’s mom died, and I want to cry for myself. My mom was my best friend. I told her everything. We laughed about a lot of situations with men, women, and life in general. She understood me like no one else does.

This blog is a sort of catharsis for me. As I lay in my bed I realized that I don’t enjoy much anymore. I declined and invitation to a concert, a family picnic, and a church celebration. I have not been exercising like I used to and I have not engaged in some of the activities that used to keep me entertained. I just did not feel like socializing this weekend. and I don’t feel like going anywhere. The only thing that seems to get me going is work. I look forward to learning all I can about how to support principals and students post pandemic.

It seems that is all I have the energy for these days. I am watching my moods closely. I cry when I feel like it. I know I need to get that out or a dam will burst from me at a most inopportune moment. I am happy I did the research on grieving because I understand and can recognize what I am going through. Wish me luck on this journey.